Am I going to have a baby... or not?

Sorry to most of you this blog is going to sound depressing. I found out I was pregnant on June 24th.  It was a very happy moment. Waited ten and a half weeks before going to the doctor due to our vacation that we had planned already. Went to the doctor on August 9th. They did an ultrasound on my stomach and she said that the baby was measuring small. In my mind I was just thinking that I didn't get pregnant when I thought I did. Then she decided to do an interal ultrasound and it was the same as before... still small.  And to add to that no heart beat.  This was a shocker to me since I haven't had any problems.  No cramping, no bleeding and no spotting.  What does this all mean? My doctor started talking to us and explained that for whatever reason the baby stopped growing, but she would still like to do some blood tests to make sure she was not mistaken. She then told us that she was pretty sure it is going to be a miss carriage.  I wasn't crying at first... more shocked than sad I'd imagine at this point. Then came the tears and the questioning everything that has gone on in the last ten and a half weeks.
I was so confused why I miss carried with no cramping and no bleeding. What happened?  I guess I am not supposed to know anything other than there is no more baby.  It is probably for the better that I don't get the answers to everything. I am so thankful to my Heavenly Father for giving me the opportunity to not only get pregnant for the short time that I had been, but to have the support that I have through family, friends and the Spirit that has given me the comfort that I needed. It really helped when I thought and thought about what has happened.  Most of the time I was blamming myself for not being as careful as I was with Arlee, but then came to realize I don't know what caused the miss carry; but I do know that I am in good hands and will be comforted as I heal.
It really has made me appreciate having Arlee even more than I did before (which is beyond words of measurement).  She has been such a blessing in our lives and we couldn't be more blessed than to have her. When I would start to cry she would look at me and give me a smile, hug or start laughing and playing with me. Hans has been great too. He is such a supportive husband that really cares for me and my well being. I love them both so much and couldn't be more blessed to have them. 
When talking to the nurse today after the blood tests came back she said that my levels have decreased which means that I have for sure miss carried. I will be having a DNC to make sure everything is taken out.  I have been advised by people that have done the medication and the ones that have had the DNC to do the DNC.  I am taking their advice.  It will be done on August 25th.  After it is all said and done. We have been told to wait two months before trying for another baby.  I am not sure that I will be ready at this time, but we will see. 

Chelsey